Every athlete's 'why' is different.
When I was 14 years old, my life changed forever. Seemingly overnight, I was no longer allowed to attend school, get my license, or even walk up and down the stairs independently. I began having seizure-type episodes where, without warning, I would lose consciousness, collapse, and experience violent full-body convulsions.
My doctors were perplexed by my seemingly normal neurological tests, yet severe symptoms. I had discovered a new level of discouragement after being told the list of things I loved, but could no longer do. I knew getting back to living a "normal" life wasn't enough for me. I dreamed about getting back on the court with a mission not to just play, but to dominate.
When all hope was nearly lost, a doctor diagnosed me with a rare autonomic neurological condition. Together, we began working on plans to safely manage my disorder. Volleyball was my motivation to take my life back. I didn't just make it back to playing; I excelled far beyond what anyone could have imagined. Nothing seemed impossible anymore.
Through my experience, I had developed a new appreciation for the sport after seeing it all be taken away so quickly. The pursuit of my athletic dream was inspired by more than just my own ambition, but by the responsibility, I felt to fight for the kids I met throughout my journey. Unfortunately, most of them were not lucky enough to have the opportunity to chase their own dreams. I felt I owed it to all of them to go after my dream with the utmost level of dedication because I was fortunate enough to have the opportunity.
After my volleyball days are over, I hope to have a medical profession that will allow me to help others who face similar hardships. Specifically, a career in sports medicine. The sports medicine professionals I encountered were my lifeline. Their faith never wavered as they worked relentlessly to help me achieve the goals that many had deemed impossible. I want to be that salvation for someone else. Athletically, I train and play for all of the kids whose dreams were cut short by their medical circumstances. Academically, I study and learn for all of the kids I'll meet in the future, to ensure that their dreams are made possible.
Throughout my experience, I always felt the need to hide my condition. Not out of shame, but rather fear. Fear that my dreams would somehow be taken away from me and fear that people would treat me differently. I wanted to be judged on merit not medical. Although it wasn't how I always felt, I sit here and reflect on my journey and it makes me feel proud. My new journey will be about sharing, rather than hiding, my story.
That, is my 'why'.
